It is in the job description

John Green wrote: But mothers lie. It's in the job description! Strange quote when almost all others glorify and extol them in all ways imaginable. But yes mothers do lie sometimes, even if their heart is choking from a love they cannot express for reasons that remain unsaid. I cannot begin to imagine the agony they must be going through when they are compelled to keep a lid on their love for a larger good, or a duty they cannot shun.

Sometimes it is a case of Sophie's choice, the need to chose one among many, or to shun one among others. For those around these are always sound reasons, reasons that can even bring them kudos and applause. No one sees the unshed tears or hears the unspoken words.

There are times when it is a clash of two mothers, both facing terrible dilemmas and being unable to reconcile them. Each has no option but to walk their own Calvary. In such cases the final judgement only comes when one faces one's maker.

But mothers are made of another mettle. As a quote says: God to whom little boys say their prayers has a face very like their mother's, mothers have the last word as they always leave a cryptic proof of their love before they leave. It is for us to discover and decipher it.

Mine was a diary that survived innumerable spring cleanings and only appeared when I was on the verge of breaking down more than 14 years after Mama left.

I pray everyone discovers theirs as it sets aside once for all, all the lies that needed to be told, all the silences that needed to be broken and provides the final healing that is so desperately sought.